Pick up a pen to write down a lot of sentiment, but the real keyboard, but do not know what to write; always want to have a record of arbitrary spatial thinking, always feel monotonous; total myriad of thoughts in the moment, but also a flash both passed away hh < br> mother looked haggard old face every day, I am speechless, I owe too much hh from birth to now, more than thirty years, and has been only with my parents! nearly sixty years, the mother of how envy of others daughter married, how I wish hug grandson enjoying his extended family, grow old?!
However, the aspirations of human nature which I still can not meet. graduate school to stay in the big cities, low wages and soaring prices of all proportion, in order to save the cost of living, and even more to accompany my lonely, native retired parents left home, and I squeezed together in a narrow room rental, the father found a Trustee of the start of the work to earn money h.. without it, just as soon as I save enough money to buy a house in this materialistic city settle down.
Sad to say, the market deteriorated graduate school, stay in college, I was amazed low income, being zero. who say teachers are high-income groups, I going to anxious!! I have not married, not to rely on her husband, old, school arts, no capital money into the sea, I am desperate to find --- --- hard to finish graduate, my quality of life rather than declined significantly during graduation backwards! can say that, until now, I m --- a master's graduates and university teachers had to rely on parents! this is my sad, sad, or society?
mothers day, sad to say a word, deeply hurt my heart, I feel ashamed of their own incompetence! she said, your father and I now In climbing, is still for you to worry about.
my dear and poor parents, you climb the slope of a lifetime ---- ah long body, the food off; reading, the Cultural Revolution; the prime of life, the Diploma in Thermal ; such as boiled white hair got diploma, and a market economy; great difficulty for the children finished the Bachelor, Master, we are faced with a difficult job hh became fatalistic and helpless parents, every night of the lottery, in a long day million, the situation completely changed overnight.
about the idea of winning the lottery is the most fun when the parents bought me the first set of ----- a beautiful environment, a fully furnished large house, after buying all the insurance, left money in the bank under earns interest, and then let me do folk songs full of freelance writers hh world when people love my parents, it was too right! I was their only daughter and sustenance, But what I return for my parents?
nothing I can do ah!! parents are my biggest spiritual support, without them, I will probably have disappeared from the world, because in addition to them, this world is not worthy of my nostalgia. < br> I used to be a staunch materialist, but now I am increasingly convinced that somewhere there are supernatural forces dominate everything. Like my life, in fact, I can avoid this frustration came a step. graduate is young and so many conditions, like my good boy, why I do not fancy one?
chosen to believe quality of life, to achieve the ideal. can be the result? proved eventually to be a hit and sometimes, when you hit no mo insist!
Kaoyan areas during the understanding of a very suitable to my needs, so my parents are satisfied with the boys, we the postgraduate exam, and later he became my husband, and then later we have the same test to a school, not months, a divorce, be created in our schools that are a rare example of a hundred years, married at school, but also in the school did not divorce hh house, no kids, no property, no marriage ceremony, even the wedding was not disclosed on the left, divided, scattered hh
now use the expression of the entire process of short sentences, not elaborate, one that is wrong, one that is pain! parents because my old one failed marriage, the bulk of their most difficult and fail to figure out his daughter ----- not by the human being and eight women, motherhood, in a short period of time become divorced women in our family are all models of marital happiness ah! mother often secretly tears, sleepless nights hh
say marriage fails, there is cause to compensate for the fate of the total can not take my hands all, will not be too cruel. However, the graduation to find work, I often run into a wall, the last barely settled in a general university, and I was miles apart from the study section of the ideal is to do ----- original Kaoyan teacher Now Yincuoyangcha, Left back to school, new name, this is life, life, life!
often thought that if the conditions had to find a good graduate to marry a man, now there are already cars room, parents enjoy their grandchildren; If we had not divorced, and with him Shuangsushuangfei, I will not go to school. not rely on single women, a stable job and income is particularly important, this is no way Select ah! age, occupation restrictions for women are very cruel ah!
I am now starting to buy lottery tickets, and occasionally in a 5 little prize, when in 500 million, when the moment is for me to repay their parents. In addition, the conditions are quite as quickly as possible to marry a good man have children so that parents worry.
However, I now feel that man and find a good chance of winning is almost the same, so that even Faye fame, worth tens of millions of names women are upset, feeling to love a person is, what a difficult thing! not to mention a woman I do nothing? do not know what the fate of tomorrow for me, do not know the foot of the road go? me every day to that depend on each other with their parents, and youth day by day goes by, the roots of a day old, the ideal and farther away from the hh I read this, it was sad, sad? This is what I m --- a female graduate students, the status of university teachers true record.
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